“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your path.”
Let me say this. I love anesthesia. I REALLY do. I love the warm feeling that starts in my toes and works its way up to the center of my stomach. I love feeling like I’m floating away and my cares just seem to go and play for awhile. I also love when they tell you to count backwards from 10, and I never remember getting any farther than 7! Truthfully, I’m so glad my parents raised me and protected me the way they did, because I could totally see myself turning into a drug addict!
I realize I’m in the minority here. Most people hate going under because of the loss of control, I think. And that is truly one of the most prevalent epidemics I see in the church today. Because we are so afraid of relinquishing our hold on our lives, we never get the chance to see what GOD can do with it!
Some of us, like me, have some of our control, or all of it, removed from our lives. And, though, I would never wish tragic circumstances on anyone, I do believe it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Because each day, I have to completely depend on Him to get me through these days. When I play my trumpet, I have to completely depend on Him to play. I remember before…when I did all these things in my own strength. And I don’t have a darn thing to show for it. But now, I know my life is being used because I am letting HIM use it!!! And I wish it hadn’t needed to come to my having a stroke to allow Him to have complete access to this life which He GAVE me.
Going “under” is always a little scary…but let God have His way, and you will never regret it!